It is hard to tell somebody anything when they are unconfident, unsure, or with weak self-esteem. It is as if the very acceptance of a new idea, especially coming from someone close to them, will blow the foundation to the stick structure of their life away. I know this well, because at the heart of things this is exactly how I react to people making pinpoint suggestions to how I live out my life.
Everyone carries a load a doubts, fears, and uncertainties. Most are painfully aware of just how big and heavy this load is. A few analyze and departmentalize the contents with the vain hope that this will somehow lighten the contents or cause some of the bigger chunks to vanish. We wrap enamel around this burden of self pity to shields us from gazing eyes. However, every once in awhile a chip or fracture appears.
On a quiet morning, let me make this observation. Until you and I see ourselves for how we really are, we will never be able to make a free choice in our path for living.
I wonder, “Why didn't I listen to my mentors, or take my teachers seriously?” (Proverbs 5.13) I know that it was because I was afraid. I was certain that the person known as “Bill” would be different if I did. Would I still be in control? Would I believe that it was my choice? Would the days to come be ones that I believed in.
Fear and doubts locked me into a path of my own making. The foundation of this road was a god of self. My assumptions were plain. I will do it! I know how to analyze things for my self. If I am to be a person, I must determine the outcome.
My teachers provided the insight. I can do it, but my job is to choose. As I analyze, do I have the courage to see myself for who I really am? Will I make a decision? Real confidence always begins with God; there is no other source.