Working out aerobically has an inbuilt honesty factor that is hard to ignore. If one’s heart and inner core has been trained to be lazy, then pushing one’s self in any one of a variety of ways will reveal the state one is in. Try to run 30 minutes or climb steps for 40 or row for 10. Each will reveal the facts related to one’s conditioning. I have not found anyone that can fake being stronger and in better condition than s/he is.
Having said this, there are many trying. As I listen to the chatter as I catch up with individuals in the network, one might think that each is training for a major event. Early morning runs, weekends where they are pushing personal limits, and the implication of gym time are flowing as if this is a norm for everyone.
My thoughts are on reality with a gym visit. I watch two trainers test each other’s limits. It was obvious that there were no secrets! Words did not matter. Stories were not part of this equation. Putting one’s self on the line is everything. The results speak for themselves.
Candidly, I miss the gym. I am eager to be back. I know I am getting weaker. I also know that the time will come where I can and will be able to do something about this.
As I reflect on waiting, readiness, and exposure, I find myself wondering if there are spiritual and mental equivalents of openly testing one’s self. If so, would I be willing to put myself on the line while others observed? Would I fear an outcome that mirrors the words of an old writer? “The warriors were plundered and left there impotent. And now there’s nothing to them, nothing to show for their swagger and threats.” (Psalm 76.5)
The good news is that my strength and conditioning are not relevant. I have a God who will stand in my place. The key for me is twofold, knowing my limitation and embracing Divinity’s abilities. No place or need for bravado.