We all carry our own demons. They come in all shapes and sizes, descriptions understood and misty, and real or imaginary. I am not sure discussing the particular matters. My particular struggle or pain may be merely an obstacle or nuisance to you, but for me the pain remains. I am sure that whining about our demons is an act of denying the world in which we all live. Demons are present because we are separated from God (this problem will not be resolved until we are restored to a full relationship with Him). They are real, powerful, and often overwhelming.
Last night my demons were out in full battle gear. The pace, stress, and focus of the last few days took it’s physical toll, my fight to let God take on the personal battles continued, and I longed for the comfort and strength that comes from being with my best friend and kids. I found myself exhausted, dizzy, unable to focus, and generally just out of it!
And the song continued – “I am a child of forgiveness, of joy, and of riches.”
I found myself fighting through the demons, struggling because I knew that “God’s spirit beckons. There are things to do and places to go!” (Romans 8.12) I needed to be in God’s arms and let Him fight the battles. I desperately wanted to let go so the Presence could do the stuff.
I would love to tell you the steps I took to “win” the battle with the Spirit’s help. I really don’t know what happened other than I kept fighting through my thoughts one at a time. I spent 2 hours in the Jacuzzi, another in the sauna, another under the intense hands of a Amazon, and respites under the intense pounding of a hot shower. During the fight I sweated through the 2 liters of water I consumed yesterday.
Today is a fresh dawn, a new start, and my fight carries on. I am a child of forgiveness so everything is possible!
I know your platoon is ready for action!