“You’re blessed when you stay on course, walking steadily on the road revealed by God.” Psalm 119.1
I woke with a headache to end all headaches. My ears did not clear all night, I could not breathe, and my head felt like a thousand ants decided to build a new nest. The last thing I wanted to do was to move anything anywhere. The overwhelming thought that would not let me go was worship.
I realized in the middle of worship that God’s call could be a lonely road. Those who are near to you and I may not understand us. Our future may be a mystery, but God has our personal map. The way forward may appear desolate but God says he will travel beside us at every step. Is a valley of despair and desperation required in every journey?
I found myself singing a prayer; clearly was more of a plea from someone who does not deserve an answer. I came as a walking wounded; desperate of spirit, aware of weaknesses, and full of compassion for those I know in need. I want to help a friend who is sick and deals with old demons and a future where hope comes and goes. I see those who thirst to know God and wonder how I can point them to the source of true water. I watch others giving what God food they have to others in need and wish I knew how to give what I have away. Jesus, you know the questions I dare not ask. God, you are present in the Spirit. Is it possible for you to be real and present?
The Psalmist understood how the answer lies in work through the relationship in and with God. Understanding the path only comes from taking steps in faith. There is no other way. God will not lay things out in black and white; it would be too easy for Evil to fight against this path.
Your faith walk is an awesome blessing. God loves you too much to leave anything to chance.